February 15, 2008

  • for the first time since this year started, I am pretty happy at how things are going.

    its not cuz of Valentines Day although that was pretty coool (ill recap some other time).

    firstly, im back to health 100% and plan to resume the gym this weekend.  even if i go only one time this wknd, its at lesat a step back in the right direction and I look to feel as good as i did when I was going on a consistent basis back in October-December...Secondly, i decided i am definitely going back to school part-time this Fall to jumpstart my new life.  since i need to take prerequisites I will most likely go to a CUNY first then transfer into a school of my chosen profession.  Health/Medical sciences, here I come! (i have already gotten accepted for Spring so its just a matter of defering to Fall via a phone call. )

    my temp job is still going smoothly...with it possibly going perm at months end...but even if it doesn't, I am sitll saving money and I am on track!

    and of course i am still *maddeningly in love*...with a passion that can take me to the deepest despair when bad yet when its great/growing it is the most amazing high...overall it teaches me so many different things about the both of us as we strive to talk and work things out in minutae detail....and it has taught me immensely about how strong i can truly be and my worth as an individual.  

    The progress and turn that my life is taking in general...I am pretty happy with it.   I have taken a completely proactive yet careful/adult approach toward it, i have thrown caution to the wind and it has all turned in my favor.  I feel *very* content right now.  May the rest of the the year be like this...and continue on in the years ahead, no looking back.

    i so love being back to my optimistic, young-at-heart self.  yet knowing.  the future is oh-so bright. 

    it gives me even more satisfaction that I have finally found my footing (since my past life/socially withdrawn personality/with the 9.5 yr relationship).  this is me, uncompromised, unchanged despite disapprovals these past 6 years of enlightment..and i wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. 

    this is *who* i was meant to flourish into.  this is *who* i am meant to be.