i feel like i want to turn off my TV, radio, etc. and just come back every 6 months hoping for a change in news.  Right now its nothing but talks about the upcoming elections, opinions about the market, banks being saved or sold to the highest bidder, ugh. as a Citizen i feel like there is nothing we can do except to vote...and the new President is coming into some of the worst times ever!!! 

i count my blessings and do not take it for granted.  after all, its very easy to start sounding like a "broken record" talking about the same old shiet or by projecting the same negative attitude year after year. it sooo gets OLD. and i recognized that in myself.   thank god it only took me 4-5 yrs to actively straighten that out.  not bad not bad in a life...i feel very lucky i had the chance to live a good life with great structure and upbringing up to age 28, went thru my mistakes and upheavals both during that time and in the past few yrs...and even luckier i get to re-emerge as a more wellrounded person with more things i can appreciate and a more mature outlook on things.  i love the fact ive been able to try on different personalities and experience different 'lives' as it has made me the person i am today. and i remain open to more defined change in myself going fwd...