May 19, 2007

  • The way "WE" came to be (relationships are so odd sometimes)...

    (from an entry i had posted on facebook.com)



    u can never predict how things will work out.

    i can truly say -- as of late -- that my relationship has become more satisfying and thoughtful in ways that it had never been two years prior...and its really crazy when i think about it, since it was the total opposite prior to that...In some ways i still can't fathom HOW or WHEN things changed.

    then again a lot has changed for both of us within the past 2 years. formerly leading different lives socially and having a lot of friends (mostly single) whom we just hung out with and even regressed with, we decided to devote more to quality time, and have each developed friendships with couples and more forward-thinking ppl, benefiting both of us and receiving more insight into how certain relationship dynamics lie. Our mutual growth is supported wholeheartedly. We (esp. he) have learned to become more thoughtful, communicative, considerate of one another. That *we* come first, our mutual growth, to enjoy each other, even as we let the outside world in...As a result, the LOVE that emanates between us has never been more brighter. stronger. OBVIOUS. supported.

    and it just goes to show...that crazy things DO happen and even crazier things have the potential to work out. for instance, i was real critical of my female friend who was dating this guy who decided to two-time her -- and then she ended up taking him back after he pleaded and begged her. of course i was incredulous at first, since i did my part as a FRIEND to bring her back on her feet. then i realized i really could not judge *them* because somewhere, somehow..my relationship grew out from madd drama/confusion/ craziness/miscommunication , in fact a million times more than what they experienced..MUCH MORE of it than ANY relationship SHOULD experience. relationship dynamics are strange...if she can handle it, then I do support her. and even HIM. who knows if they will work out in the end? but then again, ppl ARE human...and ppl do grow and change if they want to. and ppl WILL GO FOR what they want if they are motivated enough. <-- and i should have *remembered* this because my bf fought to keep ME when things went horribly wrong during some dark moments when all was almost lost...

    its def not a path i would recommend that ppl take...the way*we* came to be. Not every relationship IS meant to be. in fact not sure whether we lasted cuz neither of us could let go for reasons unfathomable...for better or for worse. but no matter what, the underlying love...was there. silly as it may sound, i felt this crazy pull to him i could not put into words even when the relationship was in its infancy...and he to me as well. otherwise i think we would have let go of each other a loong time ago, as perhaps more rational ppl would have...then again who ever said love was rational?  in fact its probably one of the most illlogical emotions ever to be recognized.

    my friend whom i speak of -- the hopeless romantic (well she IS from San Diego ahha)-- says: we ARE a love story...we went thru so much...ultimately grew and triumphed thru adversity...and that proves we can last forever. well im def a bit cynical of that, since no one can predict the future.

    but at this point in my life, i can truly say that I am incredibly happy. and we are def finally growing together the way couples should. :)   so this is an ode to US...to my babe, who i love with all my heart.  <3




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    NYE 2004 at IKON NYC






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May 7, 2007

May 2, 2007

  • FW: Secondhand Smoke Boosts Risk for Alzheimer's

     


    Secondhand Smoke Boosts Risk for Alzheimer's



    Dementia 30% more common in those with long exposures, researchers say

    By Ed Edelson, HealthDay Reporter






    Dementia 30% more common in those with long exposures, researchers say.


     

    TUESDAY, May 1 (HealthDay News) -- Breathing in secondhand smoke could raise your risk for Alzheimer's disease and other forms of dementia, a new study finds.


    It's the first study to link secondhand smoke to this form of mental deterioration, said lead researcher Thaddeus Haight, a research statistician at the University of California, Berkeley.


    "There have been studies that have shown that exposure to secondhand smoke is related to subclinical cardiovascular disease and clinical cardiovascular disease," Haight noted. "There also have been studies showing that atherosclerosis, hardening of the arteries, is related to an increased risk of dementia."


    The current study completes the loop by showing that inhaling someone else's smoke increases the incidence of dementia, he said.


    "This study attempts to look at the relationship between cardiovascular disease and dementia and also looks at the independent, direct effects of tobacco on the nervous system," Haight said. "There is an alternative pathway other than cardiovascular disease with potential neurotoxic effects. Secondhand smoke could affect the neurodegenerative process behind dementia and may lower the threshold for dementia-like symptoms."


    Haight was scheduled to present the findings this week at the annual meeting of the American Academy of Neurology, in Boston.


    In their study, the Berkeley team evaluated data on more than 3,600 participants enrolled in a long-running study of cardiovascular health. They compared 985 never-smokers with no cardiovascular disease and no dementia to 495 people who reported an average of 28 years of lifetime exposure to another person's smoking.


    A six-year evaluation revealed that elderly people exposed to secondhand smoke for 30 years or more were about 30 percent more likely to develop dementia than those without such exposure, the researchers said.


    "We're now looking at how smoke affected dementia directly and are also attempting to separate out the effects of secondhand smoke that occur through clinical vascular disease," Haight said.


    Analysis of the data showed that the combination of long-term exposure to secondhand smoke and the presence of cardiovascular disease nearly doubled the risk of dementia. Long-term exposure to secondhand smoke alone increased the risk of dementia by about a third.


    The study also found a greater incidence of dementia in people who were not diagnosed with cardiovascular disease but who had detectable abnormalities of their carotid arteries, the main arteries to the brain, on ultrasound images. People exposed to secondhand smoke who had those abnormalities (such as narrowed carotid arteries) were 2.5 times more likely to develop dementia as those with no carotid abnormalities and no secondhand smoke exposure.


    The study results provide support for efforts to reduce exposure to secondhand smoke, such as bans on smoking in restaurants and bars, Haight said.


    "It's reasonable to suppose that anything that is bad for your heart is bad for your brain, so it is no great surprise that secondhand smoke could be responsible for development of carotid artery disease and dementias of all kinds," said Bill Thies, vice president for medical and scientific affairs at the Alzheimer's Association.


    The exact degree of danger is somewhat unclear, because the data in the report are not complete, but the danger does exist, Thies said.


    "This study is an important addition to the overwhelming evidence of serious health harms from secondhand smoke," said Matthew L. Myers, president of the Campaign for Tobacco-Free Kids. "It underscores the need for all states to pass comprehensive smoke-free laws covering all workplaces and public places."


    More information


    Find out more about the hazards of secondhand smoke at the U.S. National Library of Medicine.


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    i dunno about everyone else, but i will *choose* to believe this report. 


    man SMOKERS everywhere are so doing an injustice to everyone else because at LEAST they get the FILTERED portion of it, leaving the toxicity and garbage for everyone else to breathe into their lungs...that is the most **INSENSITIVE** and **SELFISH** shit i can think of...hey, if i can smell it, its gotten to my air-space, ya heard?!!! add to that the pollution of the city air.  no wonder ppl get sick in general so quickly


    but yeah...and for those who do not believe that Secondhand Smoke will affect u negatively, well i guess keep being in the presence of smokers on an average basis and think nothing will happen to you...keep taking that disgusting smell and UNFILTERED crap into the air ur breathe, into ur lungs and bloodstream...ill just pray that you stay healthy into ur old age and don't develop complications in the longterm...


    Any sort of internal deterioration cannot be possibly GOOD for anyone.

April 29, 2007

  • Saturday: in search for a Yankees jersey

    Yeah so Drew's been wanting to get a yankees jersey for the
    LONGEST time...in fact since 2 yrs ago...and has been trying to
    persuade me to get one also

    well i never thought that type of attire was really worth the money and all

    well
    i guess we had such a good time at the Yankees-BoSox game Friday night. that on Saturday he ended up making it this mission to get himself a
    Yankees home jersey in XL.

    I cant believe we tripped it to various Modells in Queens just to do this...haha

    And so he did...MATSUI 55....and then he told me to choose a tshirt for myself.

    So
    I decided to choose number 46 Andy Pettitte in a Kid's Small. True
    Pettitte didn't pitch his best Friday night...and its debatable how the
    rest of the season will go since he IS older now...but a few yrs ago he
    WAS my most favorite player. so Andy IT IS ? i will always see him as
    one of the most consistent pitchers that the Yankees have ever had.

    we took this pic AFTER coming back with the shirts.
    the pic and pose was baby's idea. Lyss <3 Drew. even tho u can't really
    see my face in the pic, I think the picture is so cute and i love it
    that he put his arm around me like that. haha aww shm00pies <3

    us

April 21, 2007

  • Review of Ferry at PACHA 420

    ill start by
    saying, i had a killer week at my first week at my new job, so i didn't really
    have any expectations for tonight(besides hoping that Friday's set would be
    better than his last NYC set) and also practically took madd time during lunch
    to go shopping with no results (2 hrs on Friday and i was about to give up on
    the allwhite outfit we had all promised Kelly we would do for the
    show)

    but..eventually i had it...and we got inside at 1045pm, and I was the
    first of the WHITE krew there...eventually they all showed up

    first pics of the night...

    A great shot...of the most
    underrated dj of NEW YORK CITYYYYY cheers Jason, LOVED YA

    first us three...

    then mere finally comes!!! yay!! the krew in WHITE

    chimera, phoenixbebe, yankee, phuzzyfish

    caught this PRICELESS shot (i think it was JAY)

    the first TA group shot

    ...and with that ill say that I def enjoyed the FIRST half must
    better than the seocnd half. Jason Jollins just *killed it* without a doubt -
    man u just get better and better...nice seeing ya stop by on the main floor for
    a change and we better see you OPEN for Above and Beyond on June 1
    <-- a welcome surprise to see announced among MADE EVENTS summer lineup
    )
    Ferry came on and it was banging...there were def a few very interesting remixes
    of songs...loved hearing Analog Feel - Cosmic Gate early on in his set...i def
    have to see the tracklisting for this one...

    the place was ass crowded,
    hate PACHA and 18+ events!!! sheesh we were
    soo close to the dj booth up in front but a group of fobs got there before we
    did...and i swear the no-shaking dance was all around me, i was SKERRED lol and
    ppl laughed cuz i showed it in my face. Poor Drew was becoming the *unwilling*
    3rd person in a guy/girl grind (well the guys back was to him but he was
    literally pushing Drew hard into the pillar so there you go...

    - drew was like, "SAVE MEEEEE" which
    was hilarious.

    AND goddamn that CO2 came a little TOO early in the night
    - BAD TIMING!!!! 2 blasts within what seemed like forever, and it seemed to be a
    DIRECT HIT on where I was STANDING!!!! that shiet was f*ckin FREEZING and
    uncomfortable i screamed ~

    too
    crowded...we lose yankeebaby halfway thru the night, then one by one ppl
    disappear from the floor...we go downstairs around 3pm and ppl are hanging out
    downstairs, and thats where we spent the rest of the night

    all of us
    downstairs (this is such a GREAT picture i think )

    ravi PIMPING it up, girls on all sides...very SATISFIED
    lol

    me and drew - COUPLE SHOT

    drew and his boi - who used to party it up back in the
    days

    robdawg with mere

    me with Ludawg (Anh) who we haven't partied with for a long
    time

    during the 2nd half, there was definitely some serious
    mixing going on...Ferry switched off to some breaks - which was intriguing cuz i
    love breaks but a lot of ppl didnt dance...then it got predictable, throwing
    down year favorites (like Black is the Colour) altho the remix of A Life Less
    Ordinary was siiick. Beautiful Things and PUNK were BOTH played (yes Molly, it
    was great...he played those two tracks during Labour of Love as well; Punk was
    like meh to me tho) it was fun i guess but i really wanted him to mix in NEWER
    TRACKS (such as the ones recently heard on TATWs)... it was to the point where
    we would hear a track, and be able to come up with an awesome track to mix in
    (if only that had been his intention). lol well it was a fun game that I played
    in my head while getting thru this so-so period. I mean, Ive been to so many
    Ferry parties over the past two years or so, i just got listless after while.
    but to be objective, it WAS a fun set overall tho.

    During the last hour,
    we came up just in time to hear some kickass encores including a FERRY CLASSIC
    which I captured on VIDEO (god I was debating btwn 3 titles during that entire
    song, and Jay u are gonna kill me for not being able to title it, i am just
    horrible at iding and ashamed of myself...hahaa). Prodigy - Smack My B*tch Up
    finally came (thank you KELLY!!!) which just brought the HOUSE DOWN to until the
    lights went on. Jay managed to get his jersey and my white hoodie signed by
    Ferry, Drew, Wai and Mere caught a signed poster he was handing out (i didnt
    even try for this;' most of the posters in our room I took from various parties
    ahah) and we finally lcoated the whereabouts of kelly from Wai and Meredith,
    kels was up in the dj booth the 2nd half lucky girl!!!

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    oh
    yeah, memorable mentions of the night

    - First NICEST MOMENT:Me
    in the girls bathroom trying to fix my hair with my hair clips, and this girl
    next to me by the sink, takes off a larger blue clip and shes like, "do you want
    this clip? it holds hair very well..." im like, nooooo - but she insists...and
    even has me sorta step down a lil while she recreates my hairstyle right then
    and there!! And it does stay...and she created this perfect POUF on my
    head...goddamns!!! ~ lolz it looked REALY good tho and i gave her a hug...now
    wow that was SOO reminscent of the ROXY/HAPPY RAVER days
    ^__^

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    -
    Second NICEST/funny moment: Meredith is getting dry mouth like crazy
    later in the night...and asks for gum. Cl005k (Chris Lee) digs into his pockets
    for the LONGEST time to try to find some...says "Oh I don't have any..." then
    from the deepest part of his pocket, seems to YANK out a piece of gum (1/4 of a
    stick), out of its wrapper. Its like bent and shit, and MUST have been cold and
    hard as SH*T. We all look at it in his hand, then Meredith snatches it, and
    declares, "I dont care, imma take it ANYWAY i NEEEEED it" and pops it into her
    mouth. we were all like AWWWW (you just had to be there tho it was a hilarious
    moment)

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    - I
    take this pic of ravi, Jay and Wai...

    they are all looking at the picture, and then Wai's like "Hey,
    nice picture, but how come im not smiling?" shes looking at the picture for 5-10
    more minutes..and thens like, "....hmmm oh yeah, i AM...smiling." Her smile's
    was as BIG as DAY.
    OH WAI, drunk again... :rollseyes:
    haha

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    - my
    friend eugene, whom ive run into on and OFF since the Roxy Days, being cute and
    funny (he is actually 6'6 and look what he did to be funny)

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    -
    running into...

    xxryu139xx (Ryan Lorenzo)...old clubbing buddy from back in the
    day...hes been in the Phillipines studying his ass off in nursing. Great seeing
    him and he looks really good but he needs a
    haircut.

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    -
    HOLLYWOOD getting a poster...and hes like, "I FINALLY GET ONE!!!" and the
    happiness is SO evident in his face it was amazing. Wow, he def has a few
    amazing things coming up soon. Good for him!!!

    album: http://s112.photobucket.com/albums/...deux-aftermath/

    GREAT NIGHT. FUN SEEING EVERYONE. JASON was GREAT, FERRY had his
    moments...best part was seeing all the NYTAs.

    Loved the theme in white,
    girls <3

    other pics of the night:

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April 17, 2007


  • prayers go out to everyone affected by the VA Tech shootings.

    a silent prayer and white roses for those killed or injured;
    even more for those who were there, survived...and have to live through this and heal...

    godspeed.


April 12, 2007

  • my thoughts on birthdays and time...

    "you only are as old as you feel...or think u are."

    "the day came, it went...NIIIICEEE.

    Now onward toward living LIFE."
    - me (at age 34, year 2007)

    Its so funny how having a birthday can affect people in different ways. For many ppl its a constant reminder of how they cannot be as carefree as they used to be. And its considered a great loss that they lament for days on end.

    I think I kind of stopped really caring awhile ago...call me absentminded but it took me up to age 23 to realize that I had passed a "signficant" age (21 to be exact) hahah. Well then again, at age 23 I had graduated with a bachelors from UBuffalo, having done 2 internships back to back completing Aug 1996 as well as a very hands-on strategic business/marketing simulation mimicking executives in the workplace, obtaining my first real world job 2 months after and then to my first postcollege apartment in Jersey City (granted $900 a month back then and I had a roommate but I was still holding my own with rent, bills, etc). All in less than 4 months... I dunno y - I guess I could not wait to grow up back then, to establish my own life...

    I would say that's something worth cataloguing in life. And that's how life SHOULD be remembered, not by every passing year but by how much you have LIVED...or rather how intensely and motivated u have devoted ur time to pursuits worth taking on. Anything other than that, u are wasting ur time and is it any wonder so many younger ppl in this generation r bored off their ass and not able to become self-sufficient/self-motivated earlier in life because of lack of goals of foresight? Even I knew to make some sort of 5 year plan at that tender age.

    And these days I *almost* forget how old I really am. No seriously. Besides the obvious, that my circle of friends and confidants are indeed 5-10 yrs younger, I am also more motivated, optimistic and energetic than I was back then. My work ethic however has never wavered since high school, nor my approach toward the type of potential career/lifestyle/crowd and educational goals. That is something you pick up as you go thru life and the people you surround urself with. Wallow within the *ghetto*, always stay within the *ghetto*. Haha but its all tru. People who stay in the small towns they've known all their lives *stay* small in all respects...those who are meant for bigger things/journeys - leave/explore broader horizons/.make different friends, etc etc. Its a selfawareness some just end up developing cuz its meant to be

    And not everyone is so lucky. Most ppl would rather just develop a routine and not think about taking risks cuz it is so much safer.

    Predictable.

    INTUITION. Eventually YOU KNOW if u are meant to be somewhere or NOT...Simple as that.

    But I digress...anyway bdays should really just serve as a marker of how much u have existed on this Earth, but more importantly, serve as a reminder to make each year as fulfilling as possible to better urself. To experience something new, the more the better. There's no time to dwell on the past cuz there are too many things to do at the present and lookin onward toward the future.
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    "Everything has to do with mentality and keeping an open mind/attitude". People who are afraid of growing up write their own self-fulfilling prophecies with each passing year -- mostly negative. Don't call it "growing up", rather call it "maturing and living ur authentic life.". Let the stupidity and lessons of yesteryear open up the possibilities of a better tomorrow. Grow thyself mentally otherwise there is really NO POINT to any of this and wasted time/effort.

    Those that embrace each bday as a chance to develop themselves further with everything that they have achieved thus far are the ones who succeed in the end and can truly be content - no matter where they r financially or in life. Don't be afraid to grow up cuz it is then where u stand to be able to make ur dreams come true.

  • NOTE TO ALL attending Ferry Corsten at Pacha 420 and who signed up on guestlists ( particularly Jason Jollins List): There may be a change in pricing for guestist ($25) - I am confirming with Jason and Made Events atm. Just to broadcast in advance. Will update once we know for sure.

    No matter what, it will still cost less than at door. But hopefully will try to keep pricing at $20.

    Thanks,
    *Lyss*

    Events@jasonjollins.com <--- guestlist email

April 4, 2007

  • Currently temping at citigroup downtown...bad weather today got caught in the rain and all

    But sall good - glad to be in an office again. I get along with everyone. What a DIFFERENCE a great work environment makes!! If only I could find that in a permanent job now. I need to LOVE my work as well as my supervisor(s). I guess I made it hard on myself cuz I did have jobs in the past where the work was BS and so I fucked around but I was getting paid comfortably. But my pride is in having a job I am proud of and one which ties to my ideal identity...and just sitting around, surfing on the net or slacking does not appeal to me. I need to go around actively SOLVING PROBLEMS. so I guess it just gonna take some time...well I'm DEF gonna take the time now. Only doing temp and temp to perm assignments indefinitely till I find the right fit. Right now as a temp I AM solving problems...so I couldn't be happier :)
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    As for my personal life, things really couldn't be better. Love my baby <3 turns out my next two to three months are full - including a possible trip down to VA in two weeks, Atlantic City for cinco de mayo weekend, maybe a trip to Philly, and a getaway for me, and friends in mid-June up near catskills/hudson valley :D

    Also a somewhat big reunion with some friends at Ferry Corsten at Pacha 4/20 :D

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    This evening I am meeting friends up for a belated bday bubbletea meetup heheh :D soo make that my bday prolonged to a month now hehe.

    **update 11:12pm the new movie to my DVD collection - The 2 Disc version of MEMENTO (btw whoever has NEVER seen this movie...ill just say...you have to be FUCKIN KIDDING ME!!!   erf?   puhleeze, this is one of the movies that made Christopher Nolan GREAT (director of Batman Begins, The Prestige, Insomnia - also a great movie back in the day)

    B0000640SA
    omg i can't fuckin wait to watch this and all the extras... omg my friends are fuckin awesome to remember i wanted this movie for soo long, ur awesome.  Particularly Albie (thank u babez )
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    Life...is SWEET.

March 25, 2007

  • videos from Armin 3-16-2007

    Super8 And DJ Tab - Needs To Feel (Wippenberg Remix)

    Mike Koglin vs POS-Untitled Audio (Nitrous Oxide remix)


    Lange Vs Gareth Emery-Another You Another Me (Terranova And Austin Leeds Mix)



    a few more seconds of the above song...


    ID 4

    HEAVEN SCENT (up to 4 minutes)


    ID 5

    ID 6


    Arctic Monkeys vs Interstate-Remember The Sun Goes Down (First State mashup)